Dear family and friends, here I share the details on this year last Tenerife retreat. It will last one week with many different activities about shamanism and teachings, so as three traditional ceremonies celebration. Further information:
https://www.unioninarutam.org/en/retreats/tenerife/
Some relevant questions to Arutam Ruymán after ceremony. June 30th of 2018, Santa Cruz de Tenerife, Spain.
A QUESTION ON INTERPRETATION: Last night I had many visions, and I think I understood the meaning of my dreams. But in the last one I didn’t understand very well. In my dream I was on a shore...
RUYMÁN: in a river or at sea?
QUESTION: On the seashore. There were two very beautiful men; They were calling me. Then I saw four men -also very beautiful- on a boat. They called me. I was walking, and they asked me to get on the ship. Everything was fine, until I began to wonder what that vision meant: at that precise moment, the vision vanished.
RUYMÁN: Well, so you started wrong. You tried to reason, you used the perspective (the space-time lock) of that monster who looks back and responds to your name. That's why you lost the vision. The magical chance, when Arutam whispers to you through the instincts, faded away. You have to learn to prevent that from happening again. This is how we block everything that our spirit uses to clarify, indicate and guide us throughout life. Even in our dreams. We coerce everything with the mind, with the resistance of our self, with control.
QUESTION: how can we prevent the mind from interrupting those visions? How can we keep the mind at bay, how can we stop using it and even stop thinking?
RUYMÁN: we cannot achieve that at the precise moment of having those visions. That work must already be done in daily life, on a daily basis, before arriving at the ceremony. But basically it's fine. You were devoted to the vision, you were part of the event and suddenly you returned to the habit of seeking an understanding - and controlling - from a sick point of view: that of the shadow of resistance, of that entity called the self. That is to say: you know how to do it. You were doing it, the problem is that you interrupted it. But naturally you know how to do it. And so it is: we are born from the Great Spirit. We are born from that intelligence which allows us, simply, to exist. We can do without a controlling mind, which is calculating and organizing everything. There is no need to ask questions or have answers that explain the vague perceptions of our gaze, alien to the world and to the union with our feelings. We were born of that intelligence. Both the body and its organs can flow in the perfect harmony of that intelligence. You were flowing. You were captivated with the sacred enchantment, and you were heading towards a vision, you were heading towards a feeling. You were letting freedom to be drawn, with the strokes of light from Tabaco, and some unique touches from Arutam. The thing is that you remembered your identity, you felt that you were forgetting about it, and this time it hit you hard, and that monster came back. Logically you lost the vision. But now I ask you: what did you like most? To flow in the miracle through which Arutam draws his art and speaks to us, or to be interrupted by your mind, that once again clouded your vision and lost everything? This is how you learn in shamanism! Through feeling. Through mistakes. Mistakes that you have to commit again and again until you say: Enough! I'm fed up! Please! I don’t want it anymore! How many times will the same thing happen to me? And then we ask ourselves: How many times in our lives do we make a mistake after another, and we get sick, and say "enough is enough, I cannot continue like this"? Many times, when we make a mistake, we must follow that trend until it becomes a total failure. That is when we realize that it was a mistake. The only thing your inner Spirit can do is to be like a mirror. And reflect what you’re doing with that inner self, with that monster. And yes: it’s the most painful way to learn. But we were the ones who chose that painful path: from the moment we separated from Arutam. And you must have a lot of courage to see it. You have to stand up and really feel in yourself what you’re doing, and make the decision to do it differently. To go towards the Spirit. Towards Arutam. So rejoice. Be glad about that experience, and about all the necessary ones, so that you feel disgusted and you feel sick about the whole issue. And say a good time: out! We have to do it in another way!
QUESTION: yesterday I had a major headache. And when I set course for the ceremony I thought maybe I didn’t have to take medicine. One or two minutes after taking it, I vomited. I took it, again, and the experience was very hard...
Ruymán: before continuing I want to say that headaches, most of the time, are caused by an excess of tension, which occurs because the resistance of the "self", symbolized by the liver, tenses too much. It causes a stiff neck, and then increases the pain in the sides of the head and in the vertex. With much thought, it would also affect the forehead. We cannot attribute this pain to Natem, but rather that you must slow down a little. For instance, if you are already in that state, avoid mate for a couple of days, until you calm down. And take not very stimulating infusions, but rather relaxing ones, until the pain stops. The best medicinal remedies would be: the white peony root, the cat's claw, the oyster shell and valerian. It's only after this that you can go back to Ayahuasca (you should be very careful with San Pedro). If you are in an excess, if you are facing an overflowed tension, that is to say that the resistance of the self is tightening too much, the monster is biting, the head is hurting, because all that fire is up - the fire tends to go up, like heat- and burn. You take the Natem and everything goes up and at some point it comes out through your mouth. Like a bomb that causes tensions to explode everywhere. But I ask you a question: When you threw up forcefully and then you calmed down: Did you notice any relief? Because that swelling -that excess of tension-, must have gone out to calm you down. And you could calm down to take it again. I would’ve done this and wait at least an hour, to calm down a bit more, and I would have used tobacco -which is very hypotensive, very calming- to balance myself a little more in the sacred touch, so I can take Natem just an hour later, not so immediately, just to relieve anxiety. Surely the Natem was still a bit strong when you took it, because you didn’t carry out this recommendation. And surely it was a bit violent for you. But, to be more precise, we have to emphasize that Natem is not violent at all. Natem is Natem: it’s neither violent nor relaxing. What Natem does is to show you that inner resistance, which was still a bit high. And you didn’t like to see what you were carrying with yourself, and feeding up, so often. You didn’t like Robert. What was that thing you saw, for which you were not ready?
QUESTION: I saw important moments of my life. And a lot of what I still cannot accept inside me. And also came the memories of people who had a difficult time during the ceremony.
Ruymán: Yesterday I talked a lot about pain. And how big is the pain that we can bear and carry with us. That pain is stopped, in a space-time block, in a person who believes it’s real, and stores it, and carries it with him. And sometimes that pain has been hard and true, but it has already been too painful at some time in the past: it cannot be our life sentence. We should let it go. And for it to come out of us, the "Robert" concept has to disappear. The person who carries that pain -who believes that it exists and who closes space and time and, in that tension, moves on, in a kind of direction-, has to dissolve. And that's what Natem tries to achieve, by making it explode. But sometimes we don’t want to, and the Natem leads us to that liberation, but we don’t want to. And it expands in us; it continues to lead us to that liberation with all its luminous or dark enchantments, because that darkness is our shadow, and we don’t want it to be true! There comes a time when we say: My God, this will drive me crazy! Then a dilemma arises: or I take this road, once and for all, or I’ll continue as I am until the day I die. But of course: it's like diving into the void. And you have to love it with all your might, cause otherwise, What point would there be to press with Natem? If there are specific moments of your life, whose resistance and pain makes it difficult for you to let go, you can tell me in private, and we can talk about it. But you have to let go. You have to release that resistance in space and time. There must be no way to return to a memory or pain. Even to remember some trauma should make us say: what a useless effort. I pass! You reach something like a tiredness born out of maturity. Like an old wise man. That is to be a healthy man. There is no right: you were born to life, from the Great Spirit, from Arutam, from that crystal of peace and perfection, from which emanates even the slightest whisper of the smallest cricket, How can you ignore all that to form a dark and resistant structure just to forget everything, and you live in perpetual suffering just to consume that vital force but getting less and less of it, till you finally let yourself die? ! You don’t deserve that, nor does the Great Being who gave you life. The one who is giving it to you now. And he keeps giving it to you. So think about it: if you want to tell me something, tell me and we'll talk so I can help you focus. On the other hand, if we see something very difficult to solve in this search, it is always possible to resort to the enchantments proper to medicine. So that the Spirit can speak to you, through the art of the Natem, to help you to understand and to give you the perspective throughout its enchantments - be they luminous or dark. And Robert: you are our friend, like the rest of our brothers here present. If at some point your head hurts, tell us, if it's not me, Sami or Nunkui will deflate the balloon with a couple of needles (laughs). We put one in the nose, another under the tongue and the third in ... hum. On second thought, maybe we do not need that (laughs). Any other question?
QUESTION: I had the vision of a ship, that the sea pull ashore. Then I felt that I could not sail anymore, and I started thinking about how to save myself. Suddenly the ship fell apart in a thousand pieces. And each part was subdivided into even smaller parts. And then I felt that from the remains of that ship, some leaves were beginning to grow. There were leaves of grass: life seemed to start again. And I felt that life had found another way to grow, another way to follow its course. And I felt that this was another way to save that ship from destruction.
Ruymán: in what you say there are several connotations that can help us explain this vision. Let's see a couple of them, although I think you got it pretty good. That vision made the right impact. In fact, the vision is impressive: very good. I am impressed by the relationship between the ship and reality, human reality, the affective level, the past, what we were - that human reality, in short -. The ship reaches the coast, brought from the sea, and that is like death and, at the same time, a break from all that human reality, from that human construction. I'm also impressed by how, from the past, we arrived at this present where that human reality completely undid it, in each of its cells and atoms, and from the old structure, it returned to the very nucleus of each cell, and from the most deep of itself, could find life again. And life could sprout again, from its old condition, which had already reached the shore. It could sprout again. It impresses me how that old ship, which reached the shore, could be undone by the Natem, just to find the source of life in that old wood, so that a jungle, a forest, would sprout from there. It is peculiar that in this way life has sprung from something inert. It is a truly wonderful vision. And I, meanwhile, was asking him, Did you really feel the medicine? (laughs) Very good! Thanks for sharing it to us. Any other question?
QUESTION: Well, the truth is that since this morning and throughout the day, after the experience, I felt very well; I was immersed in a very deep feeling of love, happiness and well-being. And let's say that the same feeling of well-being caused me to wonder: this I mentioned to Jordi and Sami today. They gave me their advice and I received it very willingly. And this is what made me ask myself: how far should I take medicine now? Because I really felt that medicine gave me what I needed. I felt quite full and very happy. And I felt that doing it again could trigger something bad or, I do not know. Maybe I did not need more. And I was presented with that doubt and, commenting with them, they told me that many times the injured ego plays tricks on you, makes small tricks to you and makes you find the excuse not to continue.
Ruymán: I can give you my opinion if you want. You had a very good experience. Rest is also an excellent option. That is to say, there is no hurry. You can come next time, and treasure, in the meantime, that feeling that you have found -and that you did not find long ago-, and limit yourself to taking care of it for a while. I really think that is the best option. It's worth it for my experience and for what I felt you can do right now. Because that feeling, as you told us, has not happened for you for a long time. Maybe since your childhood, who knows. Then, as I respect that feeling, I would leave it in that place, and I would take care of it for a couple of months. And then I would revisit the visions. I even see it as something sacred and respectful of you. And I like it: it implies your good heart and your sincerity, which always seemed real to me. Since I met you, in our first talk. You had just done things a little badly. But it's good: we're on an island, at first you do not know, who knows, you were just starting. Now you have been able to meet me, I know this quite well. But hey: it usually starts little by little until you get to another level. You were lucky that those mistakes did not make you pay. A lot of people do. The Spirit has no particular affections, but somehow it wants to teach you a lesson, so that you will not go down that path again. And this time it did not happen. Why? Because it was innocent. It was a sincere wish. And that's why you came here. And it reached deep into your heart: it gave you joy. I think it's very respectable that you also do not feel anxious (and do not let yourself be overcome by the greed of living psychoactive experiences or visions). It seems to me really something like a sample of your good feeling and your nobility towards the honorable Arutam. It seems to me the best thing, really, and for some reason you felt it too. So trust your feelings: you do not have to go around asking people. Trust, because the truth is that your feeling is noble. So, as your path goes, and how you take it, the decision seems right to me. If you stay today, the Natem would flow through you. Maybe here it's not going to find anything. Or maybe you will find the right space in your heart, in your feeling, so that the anaconda can keep raising its head towards the eyes, towards the crown. And in that case you will have a very visionary, a very strong experience. But it's going to hit here very hard, with considerable intensity. Yes, you're probably going to hallucinate, but I don’t want you to be clouded, I don’t want you to forget what you’ve achieved yesterday due to the impact of that force. I’d like you to take yesterday's experience as a treasure, to feed it for a while and take care of it in your heart; then you can go back, from that level, to take that jump again.
A QUESTION ABOUT THE LESSONS LEARNED THROUGHOUT THE WAY: Does Natem take us into our darkness?
RUYMÁN: I wouldn’t say that Natem leads us into our darkness: I’d rather say that Natem immerses us into the Spirit’s depths, and as we reach the Spirit, we see those dark tendencies, the ones that we feed daily; we can feel their misery and their dark veil. We see them as they are, and how they grows within us. But if we didn’t do that, Natem's trance would be just the sheer radiance of the Spirit: pure light and beauty, just as Life itself.
QUESTION: Well, when Natem shows me those dark parts of myself, I start to feel nauseous. I feel like I need to flee from that darkness, I don’t want to go to that place.
RUYMÁN: H on the contrary: you have to look very curiously, with no fear. When the light comes on, when everything is clear and you can see all the misery that you feed regularly, all the misery that you let it grow inside yourself and let it rot, you really have to look at it with curiosity, and ask yourself: Let's see… What’s that? Why do I have that thing inside me? What part of my mind is so sick that it was able to feed that crap? So you start to investigate and understand, and of course you’ll feel nauseous. And what really happens is that you don’t want to see it. You don’t want that to be discovered. You don’t want it to be seen. The shadow that rots your flesh is so horrifying that you feel a total rejection for it. And many times that happens because you want to free yourself from it, but it can also happen just because you want to stop the intensity of that vision, so you don’t have to go deeper into that. But, nevertheless, you have to look! You have to look at that wision, and arrive to it, and try hard until you can really see it in front of you, and then find an explanation to it: "ah, that's why I do it ... this is what I do". And then you say to yourself: "God, why didn’t I notice it before?" And that's why so many people are afraid to look. Shamanism is not a pleasant way. It’s a true act of healing. It’s a true awakening of consciousness. When you turn on the light, in a room, you often say: "I'd better turn it off." You are before the truth: that’s why this is one of the most arduous jobs that a human being must face in his lifetime. You might get that awakening… or maybe not. Maybe you should assume that you're a coward and that you should run away.
When I was studying at the university, I knew that if I wrote down what was written in the books, I would probably pass the exam. If you study the book that’s been recommended by the teacher, you’ll read it completely and answer the test appropriately. You know that you’ll probably pass the examination. Even if many times you don’t even understand what you are reading. When I was young, as I was learning the path of shamanism, I asked myself: will I learn, one day, what my elders are teaching me? Will I reach that peace, that depth, that union with existence they have? Because I see it today and I’m not so sure about it. I want to achieve that knowledge, but I don’t know if I can! Anyway: I want to get it! But I can’t! Am I wasting my time? Will I die in the same state of mind they had? Fear, uncertainty and the question: what do I do? It’s the torture caused by the self. By encouraging myself to do it, and to look, I’ll probably feel nauseous: because I see those shadows, I see what I have inside me, I see those mistakes I’ve made. But I also feel the strength of wounded pride, and to be compelled to modify those mistakes makes me angry. Then I get defensive and react badly. It’s always the same vortex of self-destruction.
But do you know what? I’ve lived a normal life for many years. I've seen enough the way my elders, and the people around me, threw away their lives. I knew I didn’t want to end up like that. I knew that real happiness was not there. I also knew that if I closed my eyes, I couldn’t feel the peace that I saw in my teachers, because they were healthy and strong, and they knew what they taught. And they knew how to heal their disciples. And then I said to myself: I want this. So with a little bit of will, with a bit of faith - I don’t like that word very much, although sometimes it has a beautiful connotation -, I could see that everything that’d been transmitted from old to young, so many times, in Shuar Shamanism , was true. And that for some good reason this knowledge had survived hundreds or thousands of years. And I could check it personally. I could apply it to myself.
QUESTION ABOUT INTERPRETATION: There were clock hands in my visions, what meaning can that have? As I was navigating the cosmos, I saw a cosmic ship, a spaceship. I was approaching the entrance door of that ship, so I entered through the window –it was very clean-and there I started to see the clock hands, which looked large at first, and then they went smaller. They went from a greater to a lesser size.
RUYMÁN: Let's see. He was in the cosmos, with his solid identity, and he was entering a machine that was made to navigate the cosmos. Then he began to see the mechanics of that rigid machine. Through the crystal of Life he saw the clock that began to dissolve in smaller pieces, showing its mechanical nature, until he reached the engine, the very soul of that machine. As if he was going towards its essence. From something of a bit rigid start, from that ego that travels in a machine through the universe -without the total freedom of light, which shines with its brilliance towards the stars, among all that blackness of space that gives consciousness to the galaxies-, he began to dissolve that machine in its small parts. It was a decomposition process, typical of the Yaji leaves, within the strong intensity of the deep Natem. So, then it was a process of decomposition, until everything disappears, and you get to the parts of the machine.
A QUESTION ABOUT THE DEVELOPMENT OF VISIONS: I have attended several ceremonies, and I feel that in my first ceremony I started to see a story, and that story was developed, more and more in detail, in the subsequent ceremonies. For example, in the first ceremony there was a very beautiful puma. In later ceremonies I saw that puma again, with more and more detail. Is it a story which is evolving in parts?
RUYMÁN: no, no. The ceremony is a way to let go in an eternal marriage with Arutam. It's a way to stay melted with the whole existence, without making any effort, in the dark taste of enlightening enchantments of the Ayahuasca. It is a way of knowing when we are wrong in our lives, when we are hurting ourselves. Your mind is still mechanical, linear, ordinary. A mind that enslaves time in its resistance, to conceal, painfully, the reality of its eternity. Maybe you are understanding some things, little by little. Anyway, I see a positive evolution in you. And I think you're going to continue. Better and better all the time. You have to start to make an effort, to let go a little more, and forget about the references. Look from an identity, to find more spaces of ease and light in your life. I'm sure you're going to get it.
QUESTION: I have also had other experiences to which I have been completely delivered. What can that mean?
RUYMÁN: the time will come when experience is a total relationship with existence. As long as the ordinary mind is abandoned and you lose the desire - and the faith in that desire - to keep it alive. One also gets bored, and decides to stay in the light of Life, just to shine indefinitely, like animals in the jungle.
Well, let's rest for a little while. Let's check the tobacco leaves.
We humans live, first and foremost, because the sacred touch of Arutam flows within us. The spark of Life shouted at us and will continue to blink during the years in which we can ensure its presence in our bodies. A good diet prolongs our life, because it prevents us from consuming that original energy, which is our resource. Many people in search of abundant energy and a quick effect on their bodies, abuse those products that slowly make their bodies sick (manufactured foods, refined oils, transgenic fats, fried foods, sugar and sweets, flours, meat from heavy animals or those who have been tortured, etc.). That need normally arises from a weakened original touch: a half consumed, half forgotten one. Without even knowing what they are doing, they continue to harm themselves in this way for a long time. Soon you will feel that something is going wrong and you will crave for an opportunity with herbal medicine and fasting. If we still have time to help, my advice is to check the patient's health status. A shaman will also be quite accurate in describing his energetic state. An excellent start should consist of a gradual change of the daily diet, which should be supplemented, later, with herbs, if necessary, to strengthen the weakest aspects, which is where the metabolism is failing. A doctor understands the functioning of the body as a whole that is attached to the world; when we distance ourselves from the Spirit we fall into oblivion, and forget the harmony of the Great Song of Life. In this case, our tendencies will determine how we distort the Great Harmony and where we’ll end up.
After a certain period of time, previously determined by the teacher, and paying attention to the specific characteristics of the patient on a regular basis, one can begin to follow the path of shamanism as a more direct experience of its ceremonies and its various entheogens. A healthier body and a considerable improvement of the sacred touch, would support us in the process. We will never know if that is enough, even giving the best of ourselves to put it into practice. This practice requires proper nutrition to keep us strong and pure. With the passage of time, the individual develops some skills that allow him to adapt to the Natem practice. Later will come the time to deepen those skills through short fasts on normal days. In these days it will be easy to verify, through the pulse, how the body is conserved without the addition of calories. This will also reveal if life is intense enough in us. All this, added to the correct development of skills in ceremony, will allow the student to begin to explore its depths with the body completely empty, when drinking the Ayahuasca. Tradition takes us to long fasts, for whole days, to long walks in the jungle, through its Cascades, dreaming and drinking Tabaco; as well as large quantities of Ayahuasca in "Natemamu"; the most potent extracts of ceremonial Natem, blown medicine, transmissions of power and healing.
I want to point out that those correct skills are almost impossible to develop without years of experience next to a good teacher, who must also be centrally dedicated to carry out that work with the student. I also want to explain the following: a person who fasts and takes Natem (a strong high quality one) without having enough energy in the body, is going to come down, putting himself in danger on a pure whim, to regret then, desperately, asking for a help probably difficult to be offered by no one . Of course most of the concoctions that are offered to strangers are delivered by impostors who try to imitate a true shaman. On the other hand, those potions have nothing to do with the powerful ancient recipes of true traditions; they are just some kind of hallucinogenic drug to see colors for a little while, usually a lot of yaji leaf and tender vines with low Natem proportion. This is usually normal: most people who travel and want to buy spirituality from modern culture are not prepared to receive this tradition and work seriously with shamanism. With money you can only buy a glimpse very far from the depth of a people's worldview. On the other hand, the corruption and suffering of the indigenous peoples has put them on guard against the world, especially against those white descendants, sons of the cruel conquerors. On the other hand, shamanism is often forgotten over time, and the young natives (who are now the supposed shamans) want precisely everything that has made us forget the way, which is why we started a new search to return . The older ones are gone and the young people did not learn enough. Are we aware that true shamanism is in danger of being transformed into a mere theater without roots and wisdom?
Don’t fast before a ceremony: let's make a perfect diet first, a serious and constant one. That's the key. Take care of the sacred touch and keep the flame of Life at its best. Calm down your hearts and mind, to fill the present with the richness of Arutam's feeling. Abandon the resistance, stop feeding that monster that devours the sacred touch. Let's train and learn with a good teacher who is a carrier of the ancestors echoes, someone who can also offer you the good Natem, the one who demands the best of us. The long fasts will come later and everything will be beautiful.
It’s very difficult to find fat and proteins of vegetable origin in the jungle. Everything is too wet in such a place. The terrain is often just water and almost no earth on top. These are the central ingredients for a diet designed to optimize high muscular performance for proper development and maintenance. In the jungle it’s absolutely necessary a perfect functioning of the physiological functions of any animal. We have to make sure we survive: build a house so we don’t get wet; have lots of dry firewood, hunt, fish and grow vegetables to feed the family; we must be strong and excellent to overcome any risk. We cannot lose our strength even for a moment, because we know that when death arrives, our fall will be both the first and the last.
My ancestors were partially nourished by what they cultivated: a variety of pumpkins, leaves of the forest, diverse roots, fruits they found, chontas, etc. They did not consume that much, because they were too abundant in carbohydrates: they only consumed the basics to have a good energy before the time for rest. Beyond this food function, no more importance or attention was given. The basis of their diet consisted of the fat and protein they could obtain only from fish (no seafood, slugs, octopus etc.) and birds: wild birds in general, which they hunted with blowgun; They also fed on turkey-like species and so on. Saturated fat kept them satisfied for a long time, protein nourished their muscles and built or repaired their tissues daily. Thus, they forged athletic bodies that were perfectly adapted to live under extremely harsh conditions.
For my part, I usually eat fresh fish, although I do not feed on birds. I have been sympathetic to veganism for a long time: it is a beautiful idea and very philosophical, but reality in the final sense of the individual, shows its failure. If we remove animal fat and protein from our diet, we will end up replacing it with manufactured foods and hydrates like crazy, that will not work for a person who needs to perform perfectly. "Normally" we find vegans that are weak, thin, consumed; or on the contrary, fat, flabby and with an unfortunate state of muscular toning. These men and women could not live in a natural environment that required the best of them to survive, so in that state they will remain in their cities, going from home to work and back. It is regrettable to witness, all across the world, how disastrous certain philosophical beliefs have been for lacking rigor in individual feeling. I really wrote this short Post because I want to be better every day and share what I have learned and personally verified, in the company of the people who follow me and who I love. I know that many will get upset, even the knives of their blind beliefs will want to make me bleed; think then how violent a vegan can be when he does not eat meat ...
My grandparents taught me that way and in that way Natem (Ayahuasca) was taken in peace.
Arutam is a perfect crystal that sustains the entire existence in a single Great Feeling. It's the perfect intellect behind the world we see, that eternally imbibes from its own grace. It's harmony, which keeps that sacred perfection intact, making it both immortal and eternally venerable; just a pass of time that dignifies it, and uncovers new miracles inexhaustibly.
That sacred crystal is a temperate peace within the most calm and rich insipidness. Each craving ridicules itself before the Infinite Feeling, which contains all feeling in its most minute twilights and at its most splendid apogee, in the spark of an instant.
The man who gives himself, during that trance, will rest in plenitude. And in the natural intellect that has always been, he understands the past and abandons it in compassion, by freely breathing the Arutam, in the very instant he sings, in the eternal ocean of the Great Feeling.
Skies that mourn and wet the sweet earth, awaken a sudden snap, which was hidden in a corner between earth, stone and trees. A part of the feeling of Arutam, engraved on some green leaf, will remind men of some nuance of the richness of their true feeling. By remembering Life, people heal; By remembering where we were born from, we stop hurting the world. Slowly I reflect, about compassion as the natural consequence of force.
I'd like to share with you an excerpt of a quary asked by a lady from St. Petersburg:
-I’d like to know if you could help me out. I have a sick little daughter. She was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor. She had received the unofficial treatment and, although initially there was an improvement, cancer has returned with possible metastasis. Right now the doctors propose to perform a fairly aggressive procedure, but my daughter is in terrible shape, physically and mentally. I think she doesn’t feel like living anymore, and she's giving in. I really don’t think that I can help her to improve her situation, I don’t know what will happen to her after a new exposure to medication. Would it be possible to use a natural procedure with herbs, or even Shamanism and ayahuasca to treat her disease?
- My dear, you come a little late to request my help and my ancestror's knowledge. The symptoms that you've described to me, so in detail, indicate a severe deterioration of her vital energy. It is not the same to address this disease from the very beginning, when the patient is strong and full of sacred touch. Now she can barely breathe. I want to clarify that Shamanism is culture, religion and medicine, all at once, but within a particular context. The natives of the jungle never experienced such severe wear of their vital energy; On the other hand, cancer was, for them, as unknown a matter as other diseases. What shamanism can offer us, in these cases, hasn’t been well studied or proven, except for some experiences in which shamans have put themselves at risk by trying to help their fellows out of pure compassion. If the responsibility is assumed and in common agreement with all family members, a treatment could be attempted, under cautious medical supervision, but now it’s no time to do so, due to the patient’s state of deterioration and her previous exposure to aggressive treatments.
The person must recover the sacred touch if he or she still can, then they must initiate, little by little, the practice of shamanism. In this case, doctors must follow the path they have already started. With baited breath I say that I regret to say that to you; I’m not leaving anyone in pain, but age is the experience that makes a man wiser in all branches of knowledge and action.
Thus, I understand that you want to leave, because this would be the main reason of your meeting here.
- No, why do you say that? I want to stay with you and be at the ceremony. My daughter needs me full of light to be by her side through whatever it’s supposed to happen. I need to be well for my other two children and my whole family. They need me and I want to feel the blessing of the Spirit so that I can be the heart and support of them all. I need peace today more than ever. And I will find it.
Fuck, I thought to myself: I've been a fussy baby lastly, mourning the last sad surrounding circumstances where I've been involved. We believe we're very important even at the moment of suffering, destroyingtoday us the "I" with a very good justification. From the blackness of pain only deep darkness can happen, and so it will continue like any other trend. I thanked her so much for the lesson and for her truthful strength. Today I want to share something that was meaningful to me, with all the feeling that we -my translator, the mother and I- experienced in that room.
There are stimulating herbs such as guayusa, tea, mate, etc. Consumption of these herbs is widespread in different cultures. In our days, due to globalization and free trade, we can get its benefits in different parts of the world, though the consequences of inappropriate use also occur.
Some of these products are really healthy, facilitating the kidney access routes, some even strenghtening them (ginseng); others are not so healthy, because they only produce a stimulation that consumes our store of long-term vital energy resources (coffee, stimulating and synthetic drugs, etc.). First we must understand that the energy that allows us to enjoy these products does not come from the product itself, but from the very opening of the kidneys, who thus release the reservoir of energy that is used in the present. The body is wise. It maintains a balance of that energy that our parents have bequeathed to us to enjoy a long and healthy life. Life is transmitted through our parents, but our organism is also a fusion of its conditions. The more consumption we make of that stored resource, which determines our longevity, the more we will shorten, in principle, the quality of our days, and, subsequently, our years on earth.
Increasing stress with stimulants becomes a long-term danger when the wear and tear of our body is considerable. It's like tightening an old rope until it breaks. The liver can always be more tense, but the kidney, at a certain point, can no longer withstand the natural balance of tensions and break up as the sky (heart) separates from the earth (kidney). The sacred touch, which flows from the kidney, has cushioned our body in a state of pleasure, gives us strength, recovery and well-being. It awakens us in the morning alive and makes us see, smell and hear even the distant sounds. It's easy to understand that if we consume his caress in the present, with selfishness, the flame will be extinguished with disastrous consequences in time. Sometimes we are too far away from him to realize what is happening, and we need stimulation to compensate, on a daily basis, our lack of vital energy.
Secondly, it is crucial to observe that an over-stimulation only takes us out of the delicious union with the sacred touch in our inner feeling, towards an excessive extroversion to the service of an "I"; of its vulgar purposes and possibly to the service of others, for whom we would only be instruments at the service, more or less useful.
Third, remember that live with greater tension than that in which we have been tuned by the Great Song of Life, will bring us a state of electrical disruption, nerves, tension, spasms, restlessness, anxiety, etc. In that way we will make our journey without being fully ourselves, with deep dissatisfaction and lack of peace.
These are precisely the most disastrous conditions to approach the practice of Shamanism. It hurts me to see people executing these erroneous practices in front of me before a ceremony. Consuming an entheogen in this state can be a considerable disaster, from which no one is responsible except the person himself, who of course will later cry and regret asking for help from the teacher because he does not understand what is happening to him. They are very intense effects that can not be attenuated due to the hours of stimulation, tension, spasms, anxiety, lack of relaxation and the impossibility of finding a minute of rest or peace. If this were used, during the trance, by the shadow of the individual, it would burn for hours in a hell thrown as the worst storm.
My advice:
- Moderate the taking of stimulants in everyday life. Try to feel honestly what you are doing. In my case, for example, I drink mate two or three days in a row, resting at least one; without much heat and following a low caloric diet, that ensures a correct feeling and care.
- Think about what we are doing with that energy that we awaken in us. Be aware of why we are consuming that sacred touch, of what we call it for.
- Keep these substances away from the ceremonies and the entheogen intakes. This should not apply to teachers or mature people, who are experienced and master their arts. They have their own refined and trusted criteria.
- Follow a careful sexual practice.
- Live your life with heart and deep sense.
- Be close to nature.
Mountain, you love the roots of bare trees,
they heal me with the maturity of their branches in the wind,
as their saltpeter soaks my face.
I see the sky arrive,
in its dark wavy mirror,
to the same coast where I was born.
There I look today
and I say goodbye to the one I love,
I say goodbye to the one who loves us.
I remember your respectful words to the marine horizon,
today and tomorrow,
I will share them with Luna.
You are afternoon's strength
Coming back on the tide and soaking us.
Far above you still get my eyes wet,
and that's good.
Streams run in winter on my Island,
never more than today, they carry my heart,
Their crying is sweet and it's history.
The wealth of age next to Tobacco,
teach men not to suffer
and never spoil the Great Sense in this short life.
To the force that made us born,
we will return in peace.
Nothing will have changed.
And among heaven and earth,
a resistant composition won´t hurt anymore
bleeding under wet leaves.
Great Perfection, you live within us,
you draw the world to your wealth and likeness
as an emanation of the most beautiful crystal.
Temper our hearts
with the cool breeze from our grandparents' breath,
and the bright sun of the presence of those who are not here today.
As a man I take a seat
and meditate on the mountain side to see better,
next to the white eagle, I slowly raise my head to the blue.
Elder Jimbikit and Ruymán
At this beginning of year, till not so long pretty far away, I think about the fifteen that have passed living this path of Amazonian shamanism. I started around my twenties and, well, no beginning is usually excellent. But my sincerity, strength and curiosity as a spiritual man, psychologist, teacher and therapist through the use of traditional Chinese medicine, took me far in the search of the soul.
When I arrived to the Amazon, I boasted of my knowledge as a doctor, but soon the people of the area, with their simplicity, taught me how misplaced I was, and how ridiculous my own shadow made me look. So I surrendered to loneliness, me and Natem: twisting in his sacred enchantment. I knew that if I fell, it was me the one who would have to get up, and I thought: either I learn or give up. But, where to get back ?, what would I repeat?, in what bloody wheel did I want to continue accommodating the underfed, rotting flesh? And how would I convince that dark, educated and justified mind that there was a noble heart, the one that Arutam electrifies?
So I didn’t take a step back, and I could feel Arutam, and I balanced myself on Him. How enormous is my gratitude to my teacher and friend Jimbikit! How he shuddered me, so creepy, to the last corner of my being for so many years! During many transmissions of power (tsentsak), he managed to lift my sacred touch to infinity. I made an effort just to learn how to live without losing a tenth of that great gift. I balanced myself by being heaven, earth and everything else that exists, every time I ate, breathed, watched, loved, taught, trained, healed...
At one point, after many years, he told me: now I am no longer your teacher, I am your friend. I already knew that moment had arrived, their transmissions were no longer different from what I always felt. But one last surprise, and a sample of his mastery, was to receive his last and wisest words at exactly the right moment.
I owe him a lot of what I am today. His "tsentsak", his power, his spirit, transformed and reformed me. Those who know me in ceremony, can attest to the kind of wild and strange animal I became in the eyes of worldliness. Today I teach that intensely realized freedom, in the mind and heart, manages to redraw the nervous system and the body. With a good teacher -and in time- we can awaken the animal that was born one day in this world.
I remember my old uncle Nuninkia with a lot of affection. He taught me a lot about discipline and traditional care. I saw his love and he gave me love. He took care and accompanied me as I shared his knowledge with me, and he trained me by sharing his life with me.
I met many more people. Most of those relatives were very close, others were not. We're living dark times here, they are post-war times. The resentment of the Indians towards the whites is huge, it is hatred. White people keep despising the natives and using them. They cheat and destroy their habitat to exploit natural resources and literally devastate. There is no consensus. The young Shuar become weak as they desire what their "enemies" have. It's easy to end up buying them.
This confusing form of colonization has brought chaos to an entire community. Spanish soldiers perpetrated massacres hitherto unknown; the priests exercised their peaceful conquest, but not exempt from cruelty; multinationals used methods to create needs and poison every aspect and every part of the life of other cultures.
As a result of all this, shamans crossed in my path, some very close, since I was real family, for many years, with the Shuar people and, somehow, it'll always be. All of them were children of that past described, but some were better influences. The teaching of others was perverse, expert in lies and manipulation. No one can transmit the union in Arutam and his sacred touch, if he himself does not participate in that concidion. Of good and evil, I learned from my elders, and I learned a lot. As for the majority, all of them corrupted by the desire for power, money, sex and influence, I had to get rid of their presence as soon as possible and politely. I understand that if you are violently separated from your family when you are a child; if they teach you another language so you never talk to your elders; if they give you food only when you obey, if they educate you under the influence of the Catholic religion as if it were the only truth, if they constantly destroy the jungle for the raising of cattle or what is convenient in the name of God and the State, if your teachers or your cures violate you when you are a child and your only destiny is to teach that same to others in the communities, and you hate whites, you will probably want to fight them until the end and, in the meantime, you will continue sharpening the ill tendencies that you learned.
These individuals, self-styled "shamans", are usually the best known outside the jungle, because they are already known in their villages and their mere existence is lamented. They are the ones who do the most to attract attention and reach power (sex, money and influence) that may be in the hands of others, especially in cities. They have been seduced and corrupted by the world of the white man in a very sick way.
It is unfortunate that all these news are spread so quickly, and that the world of shamanism is being overshadowed by the action of corrupt beings, whether they are native or not. Sooner or later everything comes to light, and these scandals are becoming common in the public media, which expose them more and more.
I have dedicated too many years to take care of the union in Arutam feeling the Natem. I assure you that this teaching is perfect and unique and that it should be protected as a millennial and carefully transmitted art. In this New Year, though a little older now, I would like to present you the second part of the movie "The Great Chant of Shamanism. The Way of Ayahuasca and Tobacco ". I want to make the best ceremonies of my life. I want to teach all of this to a world that forgets, between abandonment and confusion, the true meaning of shamanism that my grandparents lived and transmitted. I want all this to survive. I want to leave an important legacy with the best of my people's tradition: my Amazon family.
Arutam Ruymán
My beloved family in Europe and Rusia, I'll be away for some months to dedicate to my work in my center in Ecuador and Argentina. Care for the sacred touch in your lives and nourish it with Tobacco. If you need, count with my brother Tõnu; he has grown amazonian Tobacco in the estonian land and the result has been good. No matter what spot around the world you are living on; Tõnu's Tobacco rolls may join your practice to deepen in Arutam's union. Don't doubt about contacting him if you wish to go ahead with strength and light on the path.
In Facebook and its messenger, you'll find him as Tõnu Talimaa. His mail is: terviklik1@terviklik.ee
A words of affection towards Arutam Ruymán, inspired by the end of year ceremonies in Buenos Aires. By Mauricio Auvet:
In the last thrust of time,
right at the point where dreams hurt
with the soul full of sorrow and bitterness,
the wounds throb as your singing is heard.
You, who learned the wisdom of our ancestors;
You, who was blessed by the Great Spirit,
help me remember;
You, the one who cares and transmits the sacred touch,
save me from darkness.
Your song brings back memories of the world;
your art unties the time between the sounds and the omens.
My heart listens
death and life,
fear and love,
transforming sorrows, healing wounds.
Uwishin,
You reveal the Great Secret.
Medicine works in my body,
inebriated,
I'm flying with wings of tenderness,
I abandon reasoning to reach this understanding
My soul vibrates as it heals my body.
The smell of incense prevails
in the vagueness of bodies lying in trance.
I am part of the whole,
the ego dissolves.
The night dies, the day is born.
The shadows fall and the warrior awakens
under the spell of your sweet flute as beauty is unveiled.
The sound of the wind makes my soul bloom.
From your hand I meet my grandfather Tobacco,
I am overflowing with freshness
and drink the blood of Arutam.
Teach me, oh Master!
your wisdom.
I honor this wonderful experience with all due solemnity,
with respect and love, I take care of my feeling.
Infinite is my gratitude
to your will, to your work.
Thank you for the ceremony,
thank you for teaching me how to be Human.
I continue with some clarifications about the original article published in my previous post:
I've received quite a few questions about which are the best vegetables to consume. A raw green leafy salad is a good choice. All kinds of water vegetables, especially zucchini of all kinds, eggplant, leeks, varieties of pumpkins (eating in moderation), Swiss chard, spinach, peppers, etc. Eat your fill, no matter the amount.
Another issue to keep in mind is what types of carbohydrates to consume. Among the seeds, quinoa and buckwheat are the best options. You have to avoid cereals completely. Among the vegetables, we can choose roots with high carbohydrate content: carrots, turnips and beets as very acceptable, but remember to consume it in moderate amounts. We must be very cautious about the consumption of radish, because it is a spicy food. Potatoes and sweet potatoes can be consumed, but in moderate amounts, due to their high carbs content. 500g per day, in total, should be enough for a combined lunch of roots (each person's need is different and that should be determined in advance). We must also clearly decide in advance if we prefer seeds or roots at lunch, because you should never eat them together. In the jungle you only have roots: yucca, pelma, papachinia, sweet potato, etc. These are the hydrates that are usually consumed along with green plantain.
With regard to fruits, they should not be eaten too late. The ideal is to do so when we drink water, right after the ceremony. I usually take my second ration in the early afternoon. In my usual life, I try to consume an amount of around two kilos of fruit a day, but not so much on ceremonial days. It's very important to differentiate fruits into two types: those with the higest and lowest count of sugar. We recommend - for daily consumption and also for the ceremony: melon and watermelon (better alone); grapes, apples and pears (slightly cold ones, for Ayahuasca); blueberries, peach, apricot, medlar, plum and papaya are always great. Cherimoyas, cherry, fig and persimmons are not so advisable for the afternoons of ceremony, because they are too sweet. Bananas and dates are not recommended: they’re too sweet. Strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, kiwi, pineapple and a few drops of lemon and tangerines (very few) should be consumed in moderate amounts, and outside of ceremony hours, because they are quite acidic. Oranges, grapefruit and other citrus fruits are not used in the way of shamanism due to its high acidity.
The salt is a necessary option. The pink one or mine's salt is the best and traditionally used in rainforest. Certainly you have to be insipid as the sky, water and breeze, but kidneys need stimulation and strength to support us during the long nights followed by deep concentration. Few but fundamental, specially for those not well trained. The sacred touch weakness in its body spring: the kidneys, it's a problem pretty shared between people in cities. They fail a lot in shamanism and themselves due to it. Let's don't play loosening too much: the long Spirit abandoning, its weak touch; the abuse of over - stimulation, ansiety and sex, come clearly to light through the lack of salt and nourishment (forced fast). A ceremony is the worse moment to test this kind of self limits, the result may be a serious mess.
Another issue is fasting: Should we or should not we eat? The answer is clear: you have to eat, you need energy to maintain strength or to work towards balance in Arutam. City people are very weak, they are not a pure breed raised in nature, they are full of sacred touch and they practice sexual abstinence with care. With the fire of life weak between the kidneys, they cannot resist and work well, especially with Ayahuasca, although this applies to any entheogen. Fasting is dangerous and useless in shamanism, except for experts. The energy of the food helps us when the sacred touch is insufficient. It is also essential to resist, to avoid falling apart, especially in those ceremonies with strong power plants and in the company of powerful masters. In any case, what we need is to eat small quantities, and very early, before noon on the days of ceremony.
Sacred feeling
you draw yourself in the Tobacco leaf.
You move the night to make her cry
as wet teardrops in my bowl of mud
Wet tears burning...
Just like the deepest and iciest night,
return in the tepid light and chant,
the deep blackness of your damp lament
turn on the Spirit of the man who breathes you.
What a fortune to hold the world in my hand.
Black night, you breathe and whistle twinkling
on the murmuring riverbank.
You drain in the black tears of anaconda,
which my grandparents learned to pick up
and take its content ... to the heart.
Thus, they were able to remember, they could understand…
Just by feeling you,
they were caressed by the breeze of instinct
and the night moaned as the panther's skin
woke up screaming,
letting out the bright tip
of its star silver claws.
Oh Arutam!
Your sacred presence dwells in all things,
You are the light, the water, the earth.
Your delightful feeling is the crystal of Perfection
infinitely imbued with his own grace.
That feeling contains everything,
while it beats in our heart
and it screams in its ancestral chant.
A call to life that cries in those who come
as soon as they open their eyes to the world.
You are the union of the three times
in an eternal, perfect and blessed present.
You always run,
but while I pray with my Tobacco,
I overflow the channels of your river
making the heavens cry.
Thus, the sorcerer cries over you to show
that Life is within us
waiting for its chance to sprout;
to delight us in its peace, in its perfect bliss;
to heal us.
Sacred feeling,
you draw yourself in the Tobacco leaf.
You move the night and you make her cry
as dark teardrops in my bowl of mud.
Moist tears burning...
Just like the deepest and iciest night,
return in the tepid light and your chant,
the deep blackness of your damp lament
turn on the Spirit of the man who breathes in you.
Affectionately
Arutam Ruymán
Kambó's poison extraction
We were born in a postwar society that imprisons most of its members in a system of organization that takes them away from their father-and-mother world just to use them for a sickening cost-benefit analysis made to split them into the “lucky” and the “unfortunates”. This is no reason for us to voluntarily surrender to our deepest misery or to justify our own ignorance.
How deep is the disease that corrodes us to the core with its poisonous roots, while also corrupting, outwardly, the spiritual traditions that spring from human cultures. It is like the sharp claw of a spider, which bleeds us, devours us and conquers us, forcing our hearts to give in to pain. How life loses its kindest tenor, while our being collapses in the time that we have left to live.
Through the veil of confusion, the arachnid hurricane further clouds the shadow, and all that this new time offers to young men. The shamanic sacraments of the ancient peoples are immersed in that whirlwind and become poison and destruction for those who rub against them.
Tabaco, the Great Whisper of Arutam, from the heart of the jungle; which is corrupted and sick inside the cigarettes, and is misused by shady men in their dark lives.
Ayahuasca, a potion that is usually manipulated only to see colors and celebrate infamous French fries parties, all in the name of universal love, but without a single living master to take it away from the jungle. Businesses where you can pay by credit card; centers in South America - and the world - to catch tourists; marketing carried out by scoundrels who destroy the tradition with their lying words, taking advantage of the general ignorance, filling their pockets in their decadent and dark desires while the plants are extinguished.
Fungi are another onerous game and abuse. Their drawings in our minds last for a long time, accompanying daily to those who consume them. Its spiral visual effects become manifest under the effects of entheogens, leading to false realizations, disorientation and severe distortion with regard to the natural interpretation of reality; a deranged spiritual state, with a high degree of egocentrism, a loss of common sense, with delusional and toxic reasoning. All this happens under the ridiculous and unfounded belief that we do the right thing. The experience of giving aid to those who are victims of such ignorant and reckless consumption is truly exhausting. They fall into the trap of phrases they find on the Internet, such as the false assertion that fungi and cannabis are good in themselves: no substance is good if we cannot count on a good teacher.
A great teacher is unlikely to recommend the use of cannabis or fungi. It’s very questionable what scientists can say in this regard, because Shamanism is pure feeling. Shamanism is pure instinct. It talks about a man who lives in a state of equilibrium with existence, a man who’s fused in it, and whose Life flows in a state of maximum intensity. It’s a human being that can really heal other beings. Society is dying in a massive way, as it surrenders to the conquest of a pleasure that is never there, immersed in a reality that can never be changed. The more they surrender to cannabis or opiates, the less will be their determination and their tact of Life.
Their strength, their power, their Union with Arutam, all of this will go away hopelessly so as not to be even a mirage. They will crawl in the cities, they will lick their oil soul, they will delight in fleeting glimpses and fragrances, and the system itself will benefit from that loss of will. Well that's how it turns them into puppets of the self-proclaimed "new age".
Many people continue to seek new experiences, experiences of the self, where there seems to be an exasperating space-time resistance to Life. That's really pressing. Today, we use "natural" substances, which do not come from a tradition or an ancient heritage. Neither from teachers nor from cultures. They do not know their immediate effects, or what will happen to them during prolonged consumption, but they do not care about it. We also see a shameful business, on a world scale, consisting of the looting of a species of frog, the "Bufo Alvarius", something that is carried out by miserable and incompetent people.
Under the false promise of quick spiritual enlightenment, many people, with severe upheavals, subject the unwary apprentices to experiences that don’t respond to any traditional practice or offer any guidance; all of these experiences can have serious consequences, and no help is offered if necessary.
The purchaser of these substances marvels at the commercial suggestions offered by a pack, at a good price, in which everything is mixed: "Bufo" from Mexico mixed with Ayahuasca from the South American Amazon, DMT crystals, cannabis from India, fungi from the Andes: anything goes. Whether they are companies or religious sects, they promote substances with the usual tricky and deceitful phrases: "we are all one", "we have to unite traditions" or "open your mind".
In the cases mentioned above, all that is accessible and economical is used: ceremonial events of Ayahuasca are sold, where in fact no Ayahuasca is used, but a mixture of varied elements of vegetal origin through which it is intended to imitate its effect - at the expense of physical and mental health -. Everything is nothing more than a wheel that turns and turns uselessly: without tradition and without teachers.
Another recent hit in this type of scam is the use of a toad: "Kambó". The practice thrives in our days, illegally, because it produces an immediate economic benefit to those who are in charge of supply. But it is, in essence, a simple poison, whose effects are only the reaction to a very strong intoxication. The effect it produces is so violent, that I have often observed, during my ceremonies, that many people fall into a state of agony, for their body cannot free themselves from the damage inflicted nor from the strong reactions suffered during such experiences. Under these effects, the mind is lost and confused, and it wanders into a state of madness that nobody knows how to stop, or how badly it will afflict the organism.
I must insist and caution against these dangerous practices: too many people have played a game they should not play; for that reason they may no longer be able to find the Spirit for the rest of their lives. They are people who will not be able to carry out the spiritual path by the use of entheogens. Shamanism is the path that leads us to the oldest and most effective memory that exists. Only that path will tell us what we should do, or where we will go when we need healing, or when we will really need to meet the Spirit.
I don’t care what fragrance the spider blows to the wounded masses, all of them hurt by its sting and increasingly contaminated by its concealed pestilence. I don’t care how unhealthy would be the justification that seduced those who pushed the bloody wheel into spinning, whether it be for money, social power, manipulation, sex, fear, self-esteem, resentment or hatred. I don’t want to know if they are trapped in their cities, living a pitiful life, and all they want is to escape their “self” through a psychedelic trip to wherever, however and at any cost. They make a very dangerous mistake: to think that they can reach the essence of Shamanic traditions by simply buying these substances.
Time will show them what they’re really buying. Then they'll understand the responsibility they have for giving themselves to those tendencies. Nothing goes unpunished in this life: not even what we do for simple ignorance. Especially if we harm other beings, and we mislead them inside the deep ancient ocean we can only access through the traditions of our ancestors. Arutam dwells in all things. We are born of his feeling: we are made of his gaze and of his all-embracing understanding. He is peace, He is the rumor of rest, He is the wealth that constitutes both the length and breadth of life. If you have lost your memory, you must return to the good path.
Here I update the publication about Alberto José Varela (varicela or “chickenpox” for the acquaintances) in which half a year prior to the TV report I published in my previous post, announced the growing damage and destroying made by this fictional character. I have edited again and added more content. Also at the end of every language we can find a link to a letter written in Colombia in which the government, indigenous authorities, his supposedly master and a hundred of professionals of different areas related in the whole world denounced his dangerous and degenerated business activities.
I'm not a person who cares much about anything, that's good. Maybe I care about the future of the truth, the eternal presence of Arutam, maybe that's why here goes this words. There won't be future nor maintained focus fused in Life if in our present the flux of truth is destroyed. Our grandparents took care of it for ages until today. Now ignorants destroys it “smoothly” with thousands of justifications. The attitude of the colonizing man which in his misery only thinks in some benefit for his ego, at the expense of whatever it takes, he mocks the world and groups to find justifying support dominating mases of men and other elements of life.
Even though it may seems incredible, this damage extends to the shamanism and so the Amazonian indigenous tradition dying and dying everyday. I can talk about so much... Unfortunately this morning an advertisement arrived to my Facebook page from a severely deranged man called Alberto José Varela (hidden behind the companies of his own creation: inner mastery, ayahuasca internacional, escuela europea ayahuasquera, ayahuasca planet, ayahuasca travels), a poor wretch that never learned a single thing about this ancient art (although he mention inexistent authorizations from native characters such as Taita querubín, an individual which, as well to my judgment leaves a great deal to be desired and that soundly denies it in the next letter) and, in his justifying insanity, from the shadow of the sickened ego, after being released from a year in jail because of his shameful spectacle with Ayahuasca in Madrid, scared decide to go on enormously increasing his mistake not giving up before the deep darkness of his sickness. Scared to death, he choses not to take any more Ayahuasca, but now he needs money and justifications to live his catastrophe... He decides no other than opening the european school of Ayahuasca, his great insane institution where he teachs others to be facilitators of this product and he fuse it with the psychotherapy because he doesn't know what else to do. ¿What can a decadent shadow like him teach to anybody, he who doesn’t have a single idea about shamanism? ¿What kinda mockery and lack of respect is this one? A man who laugh at the native traditions, who wasn’t even part nor live in them, the most he can do is playing the guitar like in catechesis with idiotic face singing goofy stuff. Maybe he can fill in playing a Tibetan bowl, make some noise with a couple of hollow sticks… well, it seems that he also like to make people trough up with a horrendous northamerican drum. Brainwash people telling them he does integration psychotherapy and suggest them to keep on coming to suicide themselves together in sacred ceremony. Only naming other victims as his pupils , he can name himself master, although nobody ever named him, nor he ever could has been, not even imagine it. In this sad insatiable feeling, the more people take part of it, the more his dark tendency grows becoming incurable and… while, the money flows. Welcome to the “ayahuasquera european school of Varicela and team company”.
Well, I have seen bored and jobless psychologists trying to explain the misterious art of Shamanism; I've seen religious doing the same from their own religions, the same or worse than the above mentioned, I don't know. I've seen Indians playing to be seers and manipulating people, terrible. I've seen natives ridiculously saying they cure people, what a shame. Few masters remain, that's true, but everybody doing their own without learning is going to destroy the future of humanity, it's spirituality and the possibility for our children to experience and feel as our grandparents did in the jungle. This has happened already to us in Europe, we have nothing left. All the unconscious, incoherent and irresponsible childish spoiled brats who play killing the power and the future of shamanism making your ceremonies and group games with sacred plants from the people of America, I condemn you. Happening this by own initiative, by supposed authorizations and false formation imparted by supposed professors; by dark businesses of the involved individual and who is contacted; being religious sects names, fake spiritual ways, fake corrupted leaders, as for example the extended branch of the red path of the sacred fire of itzachilatlan or the cóndor and eagle confederation, etc. Can, as soon as possible in this exact present, mature the fruit of your tendencies and so collect the true outcome of the damage inflicted to yourselves and to others. Can we have a true and pure future for the new generations. The shadow of this childish brats, also corrupted shamans, false leaders and other damaged characters, is transmitted ruining the lifes of those who take part in their ceremonies. The fact is not perceived if you are a common insensible blind, there resides the trick, but the money flows… The only thing they almost always search for, aside from social power, religious, etc.
The perfect Arutam feeling is a crystal containing all the existence. The man can stay in that trance in an inextinguishable way and stay, watching how the world flows eternally and admiring the richness of that Great Feeling. The force of Arutam makes him live in the health which is the noble smile of his body, allowing him to scream in the passion of the Great Feeling incremented by the Ayahuasca in sacred ceremony. In that way he sings as anaconda, jaguar, bird, cricket… fused in the jungle and the world. That memory and caress is shared in ceremony, so the shaman heal his households with the sacred caress and teach the ancient memory to his apprentices; transmitting it in sacred initiation over the years through the Tsentsak and in one last powerfull coronation
Please, don't click like or support the sickness of others my beloved family, we have a responsibility for keeping this present so there could be a future.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/7d7qzogcyn2uwx4/Letter_of_the_100.docx?dl=0
Sincerely
Ruymán
Shamanism is extinguishing definitively, almost all the elders are already an old times memory in my life. I was one of the few who learned the pure source, being family among them. The natives desired and desire a western life, victims of the necessity created by the white man to manipulate them. They destroy the jungle with no mercy, only after finishing themselves off in every level. A little money, a mobile, a couple of speakers and alcohol become the motivation to keep on going tomorrow. They’ll never have what we have in Europe, but the longing is enough to abandon the shamanism, let the elder die and not learning.
The trace of white man misery was devastating in America, the natives taught that God had a Son and, being Christian colony, they have the truth. In that way we lied, steal, raped, abused, killed… until leaving nobody. Poverty and misery of the soul scatters in every corner of Amazon, it doesn’t seems like its going to get better. There is already no Master nor alive tradition practically… It is the end of shamanism and its perfect transmission. In the West, far echoes are heard which doesn’t look even a bit like the true teachings of my family: neo-shamanic imitators, mixtures of science and western therapy with Spirit and sacred plants, religious sects even Christians which take the Ayahuasca as sacrament… Confusion lost in the rest of the world that which didn’t even arrive. Hereof we have individuals which cooks a plant and sell it to earn money. Who buys it doesn’t really have a clue of what he has got, if that would help him at all and which is the path to the perfect feeling. Without wisdom, training, power transmissions from the Major Masters; Who’s going to be able to feel the Perfect Arutam which the Shaman fused in the world transmits in his scream, chant, teaching, healing and passion of life?
Lost in a hallucination delirium which always ends fatally, they are too busy to reflect and have to keep on fast forward devastating everything, it doesn’t matter. The worst comes when more people get dragged as well; even worse wanting to make it public; even worse being an ugly and tetric clown as Varela; sad, very sad, letting get manipulated by the shade of such individuals who will kill the las deep feeling that you tried to protect all your life and you made a mistake playing your last card. When you realize about this mistake it possibly will be already too late.
Today the white man wish to return to the forest to find the answers forgotten by their cruel killer ancestors, but they’ll only get what they left: resentment, manipulation, ignorance, violence and deep misery. In the video I leave you below, we see the reality of this words, it is a good and true journalistic work, as sad as the miserable destroyed reality left after the Spanish conquers in America. Of the second part, then imagine what happen with the little white fellows who met with this native degenerate “masters” in the South of America and wanted to imitate them in every way. Alberto José Varela (hidden behind his companies: ayahuasca internacional, ayahuasca travels, escuela europea ayahuasquera, ayahuasquera european school, ayahuasca planet, inner mastery...) one of the major extremes of deterioration of human being, his tradition and his society which I’ve never seen or heard of. This sad shame for the Argentina people is going to be the trigger for the prohibition of Ayahuasca in Spain at least, but well, let’s leave this for the next post. Take a look of the documentary and please share this post so many can be prevented about this I have so many time insisted on.
http://www.mitele.es/programas-tv/21- dias/temporada-7/programa- 42/
The third publication of my second book has come to light in recent weeks. I would like to thank Andey for his effort and support: you have made all of us happy. All of us are filled by the mystery of each sung poem and every sung teachings - now in your own language-. Thank you, Nunkui and Sergio for dedicating yourselves to the long and difficult work of translating such a book; my knowledge of the Russian language is limited, but I know that you have put all of your heart and experience in those words.
I encourage readers to understand these words little by little. Try not to adress more than one enchantment per day. Inhale tobacco before or after reading it, and let the whisper of Arutam guide your way, so that it echoes in your consciousness.
During the first steps of the road it’s difficult to understand and be carried away by the unique leave of all times. This work aims to clarify, guide and accelerate the whole process; try to aim the arrow towards a single objective: The Union with Arutam. The deeper spirituality is practiced more easily and calmly if we are blessed by the Grand Cry of our grandparents. From the very heart of the forest has grown this lament. My ancestors listened and then picked it up in their bags. The dark and golden spirit nectar has been running near the waterfalls, an then it has gone from the Masters and strong men’s hands to the younger generations. This feeling has been sailing through the hearts of men until the present.
This book seeks to protect that legacy, so that it survives the corruption and confusion that is present in our times. In this way we come to obtain a pure work, the Great Song of tradition that is, at the same time, a rumble and a power that makes the earth shake and tremble as if the crawling of the anaconda was not so far away.
Question: Those who live in Siberia, for instance -where not many plants can be cultivated-: How should they feed themselves?
They have to eat meat. Anyway, if I lived there, I would try to eat more fish. As we’ve already said: in the diet, it's important to minimize the damage that we can make to the body. If the dilemma is between eating fish or bird, it would be interesting to ask ourselves the following question: what is simpler for us? Is it better to kill a bird… or a fish? When we take Natem: Do we become a fish or a bird? Maybe we’ve not had visions yet, but fish is usually a lot further from our consciousness. I prefer not to kill fish: I got used to feeding myself with plants and seeds. I learned to keep the Arutam, with all its sacred touch, and I’ve also learned not to waste it.
It’s important to remember: eating no meat at all requires a lot of experience, strength and energy. Much of our sacred touch. Sometimes it’s better to continue eating meat. In my judgment a vegan cannot live as such if he doesn’t learn to be very careful with his sex life. Because he really needs that energy. We must use our energy to keep the sacred touch. We cannot be constantly losing it. That would require for us to be constantly killing animals to provide ourselves with its flesh.
The majority of those who currently consider themselves vegetarians are just following a fashion. Many of them may have, for that reason, health problems. Or maybe they are weaker than those who eat meat.
Question: Can practices and Taoist exercises be useful for managing sexual energy?
I wouldn’t say that. If we want to have a good management of our sexual energy, I would say that the key is always a full love. When there is love in us, we don’t need any doctrine -Taoist, etc.- to explain how to take care of ourselves. Love itself knows very well how to take care of us. Our feelings, in that case, go well beyond the physiological act we associate with ejaculation.
We should never judge. We should never prefer one thing to the other. We should never choose. In Shamanism, we have to pay attention to anything that could happen. Because in the experience of Shamanism, nothing is free; nothing that we see in the ceremonies can happen by mistake. Anyone who cannot find that way, should not practice Shamanism. Because there is a risk: to transform Shamanism into a training to be more resistant to those visions, to strengthen our own justifications, our self, our identity. All those dark spirits. Some people practice Shamanism and follow a spiritual path to justify themselves even more, to poison themselves more deeply. As my elders used to say, that is a form of witchcraft, a form of enchantment - a form of immersion in a dark enchantment - in which we could boycott our own life and our own mind. And something even worse: we could to contaminate others. Because that strengthens our own ego: something dark and resistant that is nested in us. Something that carries the fake label of "spiritual." That is why it seems healthier for me to teach beginners: those who are not yet "spiritual."
Question: During my sessions, during the night, I had visions and denied them. Logic would not allow me to accept them.
Very bad. We must not judge, we must not choose, we must stand firm and learn from that which springs within us, from that which is enlightened, from that things we become aware of at the moment of vision, during the sacred ceremony.
One of our main problems, when we begin our spiritual journey, is that we don’t even know what we are looking for. We don’t know what is happening to us. We don’t know where to look for. Which are our tendencies? Which are our problems? The ceremony gives us a chance to look deeply within us, and therefore we are very fortunate. If there was something we didn’t want to see, something we resisted, something we wanted to cover up, to hide or to justify, it was surely something we really needed. It was something we had to work on. It’s always worthwhile to acknowledge these kind of visions. Everything we see and ignore, and then forget, is something that, over time, we forger. And our opportunity to understand it thoroughly is finally lost. That is why we must take advantage of that special moments in which a soft and gentle light is turned on: that moments are Arutam’s gifts.
Question: On the second night, after taking medicine, I had the feeling that there was a lot of fluid in my stomach. I drank too much, then vomited and I couldn’t’ keep medicine in my body.
If we’re too sensitive before the ceremony, we may have more liquid segregation than necessary. The body reacts as if it we had an excess of it. Do not worry, it's OK: after vomiting, wait half an hour. Then take a small drink, which your body will easily assimilate. It will allow you to reach a deeper trance.
It’s preferable - although it’s not the most advisable - it is better to expel all excess fluid from our body from the beginning. In this way, medicine, once ingested, is no longer lost, and thus its properties can be fully incorporated.
In one of my personal experiences, during a last day of ceremony, I expelled my first glass of medicine. This occurred a long time after drinking it, because it had exceeded the proper dose. I waited half an hour. When I noticed that I lacked vibration in my singing, during the ceremony, I drank another dose. Since I no longer had any liquid in my body and there was no more weight in my stomach, I was able to retain my drink. Two or three hours later I realized that the previous times, I had expelled the Natem because its effect was too strong. This time I could not expel it, and I could no longer continue to lead my group. I remained at rest, in a state of complete immobility. Everyone began to wonder: Where is the teacher? I had to find a way to react, so I could finish the ceremony and support my group. So I went out for some air, and then I had to take more than a quart of water to add some substance to my stomach. I just vomited about 20 minutes later.
Question: What do we do when we have drunk more than we want, and we begin to feel, alternately, cold, heat, nerves and fear?
The most important thing, in these cases, is to seek solitude, to be close to nature, close to the Great Spirit. Anyone who has drunk too much Ayahuasca, can usually expel it from the body without major inconveniences. But if we can’t do it, it’s because there is some inner resistance in ourselves. Some very strong inner darkness, which we must face immediately. In these cases I recommend a purge with water and tobacco. Once this operation is completed, or in case of need - if a really serious situation occurs - the Shaman can blow, suck or fan. This usually only happens in extreme cases, as we must usually overcome that state by ourselves.
There’s a particular case. It happens when someone willingly surrenders to a capricious game, while playing with their own shadow. In that case, the Shaman should not come to his or her aid: the Shaman simply lets him play, just to see if he learns, if he likes it, and for how long he wants to continue playing with it. Whoever can have visions, whoever can decide wisely and learn from himself -without anybody's help-, is well on its way through Life.
Question: is it advisable, in these cases, to remain alone, in nature?
The first thing is to stay alone. Then you lament before the Great Spirit. And you wait for your body to react alone and purge itself. Let it recover itself, with its own strength and its own repentance. Whoever gets that, will have my respect, and will always get my support. If you need a little help, because you are in a state of greater weakness or incapacity, you must intensify the sacred touch with Tobacco, in the crystal of Life, in the water, in the skies. After vomiting like this, affected people should be fine after fifteen or twenty minutes. If they still need help, the shaman blows them, fans them or sucks them, depending on each case’s requirement, or the healing requirement of each patient. If some people want to continue playing capriciously with their shadows, in a state of solitude, we must leave them, so that they learn through time, through pain, although they must be supervised from afar, to prevent them doing some nonsense. If, after such experiences, they don’t want to learn, maybe they won’t come back. But they’ll know what they are staying with. They’ll know what they’re living with. At least, even if they don’t return, they will know.
Question: What dies inside a person who feels he is dying? What dies inside?
Each case is different. We can cite several experiences of death during those visions. There is a vision of death that manifests itself through weariness and weakness. That happens when we’re so tired and we’ve suffered so much, and this experience is so strong that we want to die. We want to give up. We want to reach a state of peace that we can no longer find in our own lives.
There is another issue: it’s about the shadow and its blackmail. When we’ve managed to corner that shadow, but it’s very well anchored in our interior, with its spider legs, through the manipulation of identity, of the self, it will make us believe that it is Life, that it is Arutam. I'm dying! Death! He who feels it within himself often believes: “I’m the one who dies; it’s my Spirit that is dying”. That is a blackmail. That is manipulation: every day we do that to ourselves.
There are several examples of death, during the visions. Sometimes we feel that a part of us is dying. But a part of us begins to say "enough: I’ve felt this sensation so much, I’ve lived the ceremonies so much, that I am sure that it’s not true". And we let it die, with all the fear of falling, in that state of deep relaxation. And once we are in that deep blackness, we fall into the coldest and deepest depths, to return to the brightness of light. Because, ultimately, everything in this world is a Great Perfection. Everything, absolutely everything, finally comes back, and it turns to us and is transformed. And even the deepest fear, once frozen, then gives way to light. How could we avoid, during that process, that we die? How not to feel that sensation, those of us who have had the will to discover such intensity?
That’s why we have to do it: we have to die. That’s the way to experiment the wealth of being part of everything. I’ve given you just three examples of death.
Question: I was able to "see" that the intense pain I felt during the ceremonies -I didn’t know where it came from- was the mourning for all those beings who hadn’t been born, after numerous abortions in my family. How to deal with this situation? I feel I need to share this experience: is it advisable to do so?
The important thing, in these cases, is to take advantage of the pain, or more precisely the experience of that concrete pain, to guide one's life. In principle, not to make those mistakes, and to be able to advise with wisdom to all those who go through these kinds of situations. Those who have "seen" are the most appropriate to share those experiences.
Question: Before attending the ceremony I was afraid to take Natem. Now I’am afraid of facing everyday life. I'm afraid to get hurt.
You have done a good job. It’s a perfect blend of strength, character, concentration and heart. Sensitivity. You have full receptivity to medicine. The truth is that, by taking such a pure Natem, you have grown rather than cringe. You've grown to the point of saying: I don’t want to go back. I don’t want to make the same mistakes. I don’t want to get caught up in confusion throughout my entire life, like most people do.
The wealth that lives within you, the feeling of perfect bliss in which we were born: it remains forever and cannot be changed by the evil that the dark spirits could have made us. But now you have a very specific reference point. A state you hadn’t perceived so intimately before. You’ve come closer to Arutam. Based on feeling, as every human being should feel, you can take better decisions. Anything that could help you to free yourself, in the depths that you’ve achieved tonight, is beneficial. Otherwise, it would be reoriented or replaced.
Before this experience we had no idea about the depth of our soul. Out of stupidity, or not to oppose other patients, we did what we wanted, forgetting the high cost that we should pay for it. Now we know: it would be a sin to go back. Therefore, we can say that now we’re starting to live for real. We have a record of every feeling we’ve reached during the ceremony. We remember feelings, a path with feelings, a path with heart. Our heart’s presence is like a great lake held on stones. It’s a piece of heaven on earth, felt in full loneliness. Where life is born, where fish are born and animals come to drink. Vital instincts arise in our heartbeat, during the course of our journey. That feeling, well fed with Tobacco, will strengthen and clarify the light of feeling. In that way, we can no longer betray ourselves. If we make mistakes, we will feel them as well. And so, through an exercise of balance, we’ll find the light. Peace.
Question: can we predict the future under the influence of Ayahuasca?
This outcome is produced chiefly through the use of Tobacco and Floripondio. Drink Tobacco in the Waterfall. You can also use the ritual of Floripondio. We have to understand that we’re a perfect pressure of Arutam's feeling, who pulsates like the stars, within our hearts, inside our arteries. We’re a great trend. A great song.
There are trends that show us, an approximate trajectory. For instance: when we throw a ball, or an arrow, we have a sense of the time and the place of the fall. We’ll see the future through those arrows that have already been thrown. But if these have not yet been launched, we cannot see the future in any way. We may have a strong desire to see it, but that form will never appear before our eyes. Only the arrows that are already in motion will be presented, in our vision, and through their whistle, we’ll be able to understand (to see) the distant consequences that those arrows, somehow, refer us.
Natem is less powerful in that sense, because it produces a much smaller anesthetic and relaxation effect. If we pay attention to its effects, Natem is more instinctive, more agile, faster and more animal. It’s more connected to the present, more directed to the goal of producing the union with Arutam. But Natem also allows us to see those arrows. However, both Tobacco and Floripondio - because of their relaxing and numbing effects - offer us a more convenient distance and a more adequate slowness to observe the path taken by these trends.
With the use of Natem we arrive to a state of understanding, of a realization. It’s something that we feel, both in the body and mind. It’s something that perhaps can torture us a little, and force us to think about the reality of that foreseen future, so that we can make something about it. With Tobacco, however, we are in a state of such numbness that the messages arrive to us in a completely crystalline way, as if they were an enchanted world, as if they were an advice of Arutam. The visions that can be observed appear before our eyes with enough fidelity if we compare them to the later events. But Floripondio presents us some whistles or tendencies that are almost exactly the same as later events: the same people, the same situation.
The use of the Floripondio for this purpose can be a truly traumatizing experience. It is not recommended, in general, except for those who have an intense training in its use. People are not prepared, in general, to see the consequences of their tendencies. At least not in such an immediate way.
Following these practices, people can learn very quickly to see through their dreams, as well as to hear the whistle of the tendencies in their daily life, by being surrendered to their own instincts. Wisdom is a perfect balance between experience and instinct. It's a long affair.
This is the approximate path of divination in shamanism through its traditional resources.
Shamanism is a way of life. It’s a way to spend our years of life in a state of union and with a strong sense of existence. It’s the possibility of simply breathing, without spoiling the moment with no intention: just fused in the crystal of Perfection. It’s a crystal that contains all existence with its powerful feeling. It’s something that flows in a sacred pressure through our veins, to throbb its sacred touch in an immeasurable delight and to brighten our flesh and bones. It is the true force that flows through the structure of all beings.
Shamanism brings the individual closer to his deepest feelings, through the essential teaching that He is the answer to the concerns of those who have forgotten. It shows that peace is the rest of certainty; Its faith, which lies in the backwater of ultimate realization. It uses plants as a way to reach the interior, to the origin of feeling, to Life: the source that gave us birth. It uses plants so that we return and remember that place where Nature -embedded in its own grace- can manifest in all its perfection.
That feeling is not something that contributes - or distorts - a substance; It's something within us, and it is through the influence of this plant, that we are putting ourselves in balance, in the right place, as children of heaven and earth, who let life (Arutam) travel within them with increasing intensity.
There are really few plants that help us in such a way, every culture had a few of its own, and were always in the hands of the Master. It is true that there were many others, which produced similar effects, but in the end –sometimes too late-, the participants discovered the damage infringed by its use.
Shamanism is an ancestral path that goes back to the origins of humanity - and of knowledge - passed down through generations. It is a way to walk a path when you are lost in pain; a way of looking back that requires you to look at those ahead of you, just in case.
The ancients did not consume substances because they were not trapped and repressed - like many of our contemporaries - in a limited identity frustrated, circling, doomed to pain and failure. They were not dark souls who felt sorry for themselves. They did not live with dementia, nor did they share poisoned smiles with one another. They did not feel they needed anything, except to take care of the Great Feeling from which they were born. And if they hardened and tightened too much, they asked their elders - whom they respected and considered worthy examples - as the way to become flexible again to Life; They tried to be like them to use the art that they inherited and that survived the passage of time and difficulties.
It goes without saying that nothing new was ever invented: it was always more or less the same, for centuries, in ancestral cultures. Each Master had his peculiarities, but in any case he transmitted the Great Feeling of Arutam with special care. In such a way it was possible to heal, and to remember, and to fill with the sacred touch; And balanced, in turn, any feeling of weakness or oblivion. Ayahuasca (Natem) was the key to that definitive beginning, but the Master was the main element of these ceremonies, and for that very reason he was so difficult to find.
We take Natem, we strive for him with an untiring will, we take care and we fast to keep the sacred trance intensely, at least 14 hours, to defeat the resistance of the "I", and clear away his rancid shadow. Too much time is required to balance our feeling in Perfection and to stay within it naturally. It takes a lot of time to renew the flow of Life within us, and get the body to remember where it came from, how it was at birth and how it should continue its remaining life according to the Great Song of Arutam.
Once the man reached his last Union and, with the passage of time, and balances within it, he takes care of it with Tobacco. A living book written by Arutam's own hand, the realized man is able to fuse, for a few moments, with all of existence, just by breathing a few dark drops of his strong nectar.
The life of a Shaman remains untouched, flooded and protected by the spirit of Tobacco (Tsaank). The memory of feeling can no longer be easily betrayed, and sensitivity is a place where instincts return, to bring the strong beat of Arutam to the entire world.
Arutam Ruymán
